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Attempt is an Addiction

Posted in Aims on August 22, 2009 by Meta

              I spent my vacation in Cambodia. It was worse than what I expected, but I prepared for it to happen anyway. So it’s better when something is predictable.

              One thing that I want to put in is about “Teen Attempter.” It could be suicide attempters or drug attempters. Both are almost similar cases, except for one difference that suicide attempters throw awayonly their futures, but drug attempters could blow up other’s as well.

Photo’s InFO: Feeling Alone

Feeling Alone

              You might as well do not want to believe that I’m in a category of teen suicidal. I used to feel it, the need of being out of my life, growing stronger. I was so sick of my life, but then I’ve got a solution to that. I just need to get a life. Sometimes I believe that the longer I live, the longer want to stay alive. I know it’s easier said than done, but after all, I realized that if I always get what I’m asking for, then what is the meaning of it?

              Sometimes I thanked my father for the fact that he never gave what I asked for because then I have come to know how to get what I want by myself, and it is much better. It means more to me. Life is meaningful only when it’s painful and you still survive it. If you were born to be a person with everything, without pain, your life means nothing at all. Just die the day you were born.

              I’m surprised when I get to know that my best friend in Cambodia is in that list too. The second time we met during my vacation there, she asked me, “How often did you want to kill yourself?”



              “Well, I didn’t want to kill myself, but didn’t hesitate to be killed.”

              “So, how often did you want to die?”

              “Uh…everyday, I guess.”

              Then we busted out laughing about 2 minutes. It was kind of funny when best friends’ talk is about suicidal and as it turned out, we’re not very different at all.

              Well then I said, “You know, the second I got closer to death, I just wanted to breathe. Whenever I felt like a trip or a thing is going to kill me, I’ve found the way to protect my life, a way to just keep on breathing.”

              “That’s not uncommon! I’ve read a book about teen suicidal and there’s a teenage girl who cringed when she saw or heard about suicide, but later, she took pain killer pills a whole bottle. It was too much for her to handle. She said she couldn’t do anything about death or life at that time. She wanted to take the pain away.” She explainedSuicide.

              Then I told her about another girl story, “Yeah, there’s a girl who took rats’ pill. She said if she knew that committing suicide was that hard, she wouldn’t have killed herself.”

Image’s InFO: Suicide

              My best friend cringed when she heard the story.

              “I know, she died once, that’s what I meant.”

              She made her face even more like a do-you-even-notice-what-you’re-saying look. I was like, “it was in a magazine. The girl sort of remembers her past life. She was around 6 years old when she was interviewed!”

              Then I gave up convincing her. “Alright, what do you have to say earlier?”

              Then she explained that teenagers are attempters, but adults are the completers. However, adults rarely commit suicide because the longer they live, the longer they get used to being alive. They, most of the adults, can handle their lives pretty well. Nonetheless, the more a person is attempting to do one thing, whether killing themselves or doing drug, or buying weapons, the closer that person get to do it completely.Depression

Pic’s InFO: Depression

               Attempt is like an addiction. Once you want to do it, you just want it to be done. Therefore, do not PUSH attempters to do what they attempt to do. It’s a really bad idea.

              After all we need counselors for teen attempters. For example, in the US, there are social services for people who attempt to commit suicide. Most of the times, the moment people want to end their lives, they call the number, and in some ways, they are convinced that live is worth living for.Teen Suicide

Image’s InFo: Teen Suicide

              Some attempters who are in the suicidal committee, they get yellow cards which are the symbol of committing suicide. So when they really want to do it, they just show others the yellow cards. It means, instead of saying I want to kill myself right now, it’s easier to just hand the cards over to somebody. And most likely, they are saved and supported by the ones who are given or shown the cards.

              I think this is the best way to save their lives in time, for now. So for drug attempters, there should have some programs like this one. Like a saying, “Prevent is better than Cured.”

              Anymore information about suicide and solution, please go to the website


Here I Am – once again!

Posted in Aims on June 23, 2009 by Meta

             I left this blog a little while, and I realized that it’s almost expired, but my teacher told me that it’s okay because I could always make it alive again. She says this is the good thing about blog. So here I am, recharging this blog like my dead battery.

             In fact, I was a little busy with my school papers, presentations, some simple exams, and some extra curriculum works on my Zine (it’s a shortcut of magazine).

             To be honest, I just wanted those things to get over with, but it was good because I didn’t have to decide what I should do first since all I needed to do is using two hands and two legs scratching those paper works and then they were done haphazardly. Nevertheless, I’ve got good marks, the top one, and some admiration. That is the only good thing about being busy.

             Among those class work, I’ve done one thing that is very interesting for my teachers, and of course, me too. I went to a rehab to interview some addicts, I’ve been to the University of Chittagong a few times to ask some general information about drug addiction from a lecturer of the physiology department of the university, and I interviewed a doctor in a drug center of the government (he states that it is not a rehab because it doesn’t have enough facilities.)

             These works are for the website Your Story of the British Broadcast Channel radio. From that, I’ve learned a lot. However, I couldn’t put the links for my readers to check those works out because one of the addicts that I’ve interviewed, Osru, wanted me to not do it. (Since my blog is kind of well-known in my school).

             Nevertheless, I will re-edit the audios that I’ve got, without her voice in it, and upload it on my blog later. I hope then you will learn something different from it.

Why Are Victims’ Experiences Important?

Posted in Aims on March 18, 2009 by Meta


There are some places where the victims from different places along with different experiences come together.

Why would they do that?

They actually have gathered more of the people like them to prevent the people like us from their life experiences.

A lot of people have been through shocking experiences because it is never easy to live a better life always. However, we can try our best to make our lives better.

People say, “Learning from others’ mistakes is way better than learning from our own mistakes.

Thus, victims’ experiences can teach us a lot and we should be aware of what they say so that we can protect ourselves from those appalling incidents which have been experienced already.

Why Talk about Drug Addition?

Posted in Aims on February 16, 2009 by Meta


          Drug addiction is one of the issues which is needed to be addressed since more and more people have been affected from it. Most likely, I will put out some real situations that relate to drug addiction and discuss about it and because internet is the best way to communicate and share our own opinions, I want to participate by giving out my point of views and experiences about drug issue. In that case, I hope others can learn through my experiences and think about the arguments and I hope that at least I can contribute to prevent this issue.